Are You a Mat Or a Mountain?

On Monday I attended a very difficult and upsetting meeting and I came out of it with a new view of myself. All of my life, I have been walked over like a door mat and I never really knew what to do about it. It doesn’t help that I am a super sensitive and emotional person. I mean…I cry at sad adverts for goodness sake. But I know that doesn’t make me weak and it doesn’t stop me from kicking ass when I need to (metaphorically of course).

So the lesson I learned about myself, was simply that I am a strong person. I did not break down during the meeting, my eyes did let some tears go, from reliving the traumatic experiences I had gone through. But I did not break down. I held my own. I stood up for myself. I was strong.

For the first time in my life, I felt like I was winning. I felt like the doormat side of me, had been thrown away. And I realised that that strength was inside of me the entire time, I just didn’t know it was there.

The person that supported me through the meeting continuously told me, “You’re so strong, do you know that?”

My answer? “No…I’m not.”

But when I returned home and calmed down a little, I did begin to feel like I had gained some strength. I wasn’t as upset as I was before, I wasn’t as sensitive to the subject.

Standing up for yourself in difficult situations can be extremely hard and difficult. You have to wait for the opportune moment and judging that can be tricky. But you shouldn’t allow yourself to be a door mat, to anybody. Be a wall, a mountain that cannot move.

I was once a door mat. Now I am a strong, tall, mountain.

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Light Up The Darkness

Firstly, I’d like to apologise for my lateness in posting a new blog. I’ve had this thought on my mind for a few days, but I just couldn’t figure out how to word it; but I think I’ve finally got it.

 

It has become apparent to me that making yourself smile and laugh is rather important. Especially if you’re suffering with something like depression, or anxiety. Sometimes while suffering with mental illnesses such as these, it can be very difficult to socialise with friends and even family. So, what’s the next option? Well it’s to make yourself feel better, or at least try.

Making yourself feel a little better doesn’t have to be difficult, it’s actually pretty easy. Of course it’s easy to spend your days thinking of that person or that situation that is making you want to hide in darkness forever, but you need a break from that or your health will suffer.

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Depression

So many people live with depression

It forces victims into a long term isolation

But what does it mean to live with this condition?

Please, allow me to share my own personal position

 

Depression, is something that cannot really be seen, most of the time sufferers will put on a happy face and say “I’m fine.” when in actual fact they are far from ‘fine’.

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